20 April 2008

EMDWT 25/4/08

recording25408


er don't know the date Friday I think might be the 23rd of 24th right one more assessment to do and that is about my continuing practice email from Judith this morning about Mediascape so I think that writing out a proposal for funding for the mediascape will be one bit of it I could add the Becta bid what is happening there with Ami and the other schools with another bit of the bid and what is happening with Apple trying to get regional training status that could be part of what I am trying to do in the new build and then what I am trying to do for the animation that could be another aspect to it Roehampton and the Gateshead CLC and developing animation use in school particularly in relation to looking at animators getting resource material together that is actually what I was thinking this part of the methodology would be about very much getting that together for the two conferences and then on the website front all the flash stuff and the website that is now up and running for Sidcot another website so I think that that is all that assignment sorted I have just got to write it now and the sooner the better so maybe that is my task for the weekend but bloody computers garage band won't start up disk won't verify disks keep dying brand new bloody computer two white laptops out because their batteries don't work any more after a year and a half money money money tipped down the drain and then facebook I have lots of past students on my facebook account and last weekend one of these students he wasn't particularly pleasant when he was at school but he sent round a bit of video clip from a security camera of a motorcyclist going under the tires of a truck and getting spread across the road and it really made me feel quite ill all week and thinking a lot about that because it was sort of sent around as a laugh I suppose or that laugh horror gore sort of thing and wondering where that fits in with my freedom not to look at that sort of stuff same with pornography viagra junk email where does my freedom not to look at that stuff what are my rights what are other peoples rights how does that fit in with Tibet I gave a long tirade to my form group yesterday about penis enlargement and people going under tires and the Olympic torch should we have a system like China where google is blocked or do we need it to be totally free mind you google is better than it used to be there was a time when i wouldn't dare let a 10 year old type pussy into google when she was looking for pictures of cats and kittens enough of this rubbish end call.

EMDWT 21/4/08

recording21408

Another thought is how much I change my ideas over my life time or whether what I have as a teenager is quite fixed really I was thinking of the first, well the second, painting that I did for my degree which fits extremely well with Cornell how much I have moved on the collecting of bits of brass and the making of mobiles when I was in college, Sunderland beach, beach walks Cornell and his sort of drifty beachy woody sort of stuff fits in with Alfred Wallis as well all that sort of stuff how much have I really moved on are we sort of where we are for our life is that why some artists carry on and on is that why I like Picasso so much even thought I don't really like his work because he moves on and he moves on and he moves on whereas someone like Dali didn't really move too much at all really. Do we form our characters early in life. Was I substantially as I am by the age of Four?

EMDWT 21/4/08

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Ahh, 21st I think, 21st of April thinking about this presentation which I have to do on Thursday thinking about my target and how it has sort of landed with the dadaists and surrealists quite firmly and looking back over what I have done art wise certainly there has been a huge influence on me from the Dadaists and Surrealists I mean they are maybe the dadaists in particular are sort of one of the real foundation of twentieth century art the big change from painterly to conceptual and thinking of my target and how the artists the dadaists the surrealists fit in I'm not a particular fan of either really I can't say that I particularly like either dada or surrealism I find it a little artificial and intellectual perhaps what I feel is that it is a bit forced that may be just from my own simplistic and naive situation but that is how I feel about it I certainly don't like the surrealists when the head off to too much of an extreme Dali is one of my pet hates, Bellmer that extreme sexuality make me cringe like a car crash I watched 'Crash' and couldn't come to grips with that either but I picked Cornell because he is really safe he is what he is there is no sort of pretence and really thinking that I am what I am and I don't want or need to push myself to be highly intellectual or clever or trying to be politically world changing or anything like that I can just do and and be, do be do be do enjoy which heads me back to the sort of the experience and thinking more about Cornell and particularly his boxes and limited space the collecting in terms of the web which is an extraordinary device for collecting really, collecting and organising and arranging whether it be itunes music or thoughts or images or whatever it is it has that collecting element to it and it fits in terms of the limited space the little bit of space that I am thinking about in terms of website design and trompe l'oeil of the websites themselves and the imagery connected to websites that all fits with Cornell and the collage fits as well the collage and the assemblage so I may not like it or him or my choice but just at the moment it seems to fit extraordinary well quite what I will say about him in the presentation I don't know and I think that is a week or two's time my choice will be very different but that is the way it goes isn't it you look at the list and see where the arrow lands.