Assignment 5
Notes in repsonse to the flopping of assignent 5
31/10/08 08:49
Thinking about the assignment 5 presentation and the
responses to it from both tutors and others. Tutors
unhappy, others bemused. The presentation went very
badly, partly due to lack of preparation perhaps, but
also technical difficulties - that threw me. These
can be very little thinks - just before I started the
presentation I was showing the amazing text facility
on the iPhone to my neighbour, as she had asked what
the device was, and noticed as I got up to speak that
it was missing a bit - this upset me, the room was
hot - I got very hot, very dry, and very frustrated
with the internet connection that was working too
slowly for me to do the talk that I had in mind at
pace I had in mind - the fun clicks and farts on my
assessment three flash presentation, which sort of
makes a mockery of it, while remaining honest - I am
not wanting to take the piss, but for me the humour
is part of it - the fact that I have called it an
assignation, the sounds, the self ridicule in the
photos and the feel of the site. But all the comedy
went from the presentation because it was not
working, and I went flat - It went flat - just like a
comic who fails to raise a laugh - worst feeling. But
the upshot was also that the tutors did not think
that what I was doing was the right direction - and
it is this that I have been thinking about mostly -
is it or not, and if not, what is?
I still think that what I have done answers both the criteria of assessment five, and is an honest response to the lectures that we have been presented with.
It has been uncomfortable, in that it feels very self indulgent rather than an intellectual exercise.
I still maintain that I am at the college in relation to my role as teacher rather than as an artist in my own right.
So dissagrements over childrens work, photography - can students work be called Art?
The prevelence of junk at the degree shows - maybe my junk time has come.
The feeling of not being worthy, or academic enough
the trompe l'oeil web design
aimed at students
Still excited by collecting
Still intent on web design and exploring media
The Huge about of work that I put in - and the fact that mostly I feel that I was getting positive feedback, until it was really too late for me to do anything about it.
The experimental - learning the software, setting up the site, finding ways of doing the feedback - all relevent - perpahs also in relation to school students and my own dyslexic tenencies.
Following further feedback - beginning to change my mind - needed to have more of an academic approach to the Research Methods - not so personal, should have been pushing the pedagogic, getting lost in the too personal perhaps. But then what about the practical and the skills base, which is a primary reason for me doing the MA?
I still think that what I have done answers both the criteria of assessment five, and is an honest response to the lectures that we have been presented with.
It has been uncomfortable, in that it feels very self indulgent rather than an intellectual exercise.
I still maintain that I am at the college in relation to my role as teacher rather than as an artist in my own right.
So dissagrements over childrens work, photography - can students work be called Art?
The prevelence of junk at the degree shows - maybe my junk time has come.
The feeling of not being worthy, or academic enough
the trompe l'oeil web design
aimed at students
Still excited by collecting
Still intent on web design and exploring media
The Huge about of work that I put in - and the fact that mostly I feel that I was getting positive feedback, until it was really too late for me to do anything about it.
The experimental - learning the software, setting up the site, finding ways of doing the feedback - all relevent - perpahs also in relation to school students and my own dyslexic tenencies.
Following further feedback - beginning to change my mind - needed to have more of an academic approach to the Research Methods - not so personal, should have been pushing the pedagogic, getting lost in the too personal perhaps. But then what about the practical and the skills base, which is a primary reason for me doing the MA?
DWT 27/5/08
28/05/08 08:53
mdwt270508
Walking up the hill with my phone possibly for last time seeing as how this has to be in on Thursday and it's a different hill seeing as how it is half term thinking that I should be getting on with doing an evaluation of the term part of the evaluation would be really what I have learned in terms of methodology .........as well as what I have learned about me getting the quote that I found yesterday I shall have to go back and have a look for it some thing like like 'all art is metaphor' also thinking about doing some more of my own work over the summer for the new new build exhibition it would give me the motivation to do that it made made me think quite a lot about it so it has been a really useful term for all sorts of different reasons thinking about ...............the animation days I have a huge amount of work to do over the next fortnight getting these talks and things organised that I was planning to do for assignment 5 but I have run out of time so I shall just have to talk about what I intend to do ....................................also in the summer really what I want to do is to get going on Tom's work for next do as much of the viewing and reading for that as I can.............. I can't get away from the fact that what I am doing here is the MA.... too windy............. I'll stop
Walking up the hill with my phone possibly for last time seeing as how this has to be in on Thursday and it's a different hill seeing as how it is half term thinking that I should be getting on with doing an evaluation of the term part of the evaluation would be really what I have learned in terms of methodology .........as well as what I have learned about me getting the quote that I found yesterday I shall have to go back and have a look for it some thing like like 'all art is metaphor' also thinking about doing some more of my own work over the summer for the new new build exhibition it would give me the motivation to do that it made made me think quite a lot about it so it has been a really useful term for all sorts of different reasons thinking about ...............the animation days I have a huge amount of work to do over the next fortnight getting these talks and things organised that I was planning to do for assignment 5 but I have run out of time so I shall just have to talk about what I intend to do ....................................also in the summer really what I want to do is to get going on Tom's work for next do as much of the viewing and reading for that as I can.............. I can't get away from the fact that what I am doing here is the MA.... too windy............. I'll stop
emdwt 23/5/08
23/05/08 08:00
emdt230508
Friday heading back down the hill thinking about assignment 5 and thinking about it in relation to what I do over the summer which is obviously going to be adobe stuff and particularly building my website for the art department creative arts and thinking that the main task as part of that relates to the adobe thing and the other teaching that I am doing later on this term is to get my examples of digital artwork up on the web in an up to date format as a flash file in the way that I have been doing the assignments for the term so that I can just hand people a card with the address on it and that is where they can go to link into all sorts of information but also resources resources like perhaps the information about the software that I use or the art department website itself whatever
Friday heading back down the hill thinking about assignment 5 and thinking about it in relation to what I do over the summer which is obviously going to be adobe stuff and particularly building my website for the art department creative arts and thinking that the main task as part of that relates to the adobe thing and the other teaching that I am doing later on this term is to get my examples of digital artwork up on the web in an up to date format as a flash file in the way that I have been doing the assignments for the term so that I can just hand people a card with the address on it and that is where they can go to link into all sorts of information but also resources resources like perhaps the information about the software that I use or the art department website itself whatever
emdwt2205083
23/05/08 06:56
emdwt2205081
Heading up the hill Thursday just before half term thinking about other things to include in assignment 5 thinking about getting the software list together up to date useful for the animation day anyway and in a sense my bibliography the software list is certainly a tool for the work that I do maybe there are other resources that I could get together as well getting hold of Adobe to get the work packs for the teachers ready for Newcastle thinking about the blogs, blogging going through all the adobe blogs and finding the ones that are most relevant looking at Tom's blog as well doing that as he will be teaching me next term make a start on that assignment on narrative I was thinking about other things to include in terms of research the clappy thing that I did last year in flash get that up on to the web site some how and see if it works over the internet because that is sort of related to what I would be doing in Newcastle. In terms of how I present assignment 5 I am thinking that possibly it is not going to be a slide show it would perhaps be an idea to do something with the pulp motion advanced that I have just started on get that into the website somehow the book one in particular or maybe two or three examples but I am running out of things to show I don't want to show a great deal more of my work I don't know what else I would put up there but a few example of aquafadas could go up but in terms of the actual talk I was thinking of literally doing it as a talk just explaining what I am doing the bids maybe have them there actually printed out and the other resource material and do more of a sort of show and tell but I shall wait to see what others have done today this afternoon and adjust what I do accordingly right I didn't want to do too much talking this morning the one that I did from last week took me 20 minutes or so to type up I can say that my typing has improved hugely my touch typing during this exercise and it has been a very interesting way of working using skype for recording my thoughts definitely has to be in there as part of assignment 5 maybe a sort of you know evaluation of the term would be part of it as well it is certainly how - because doing the journal has all been part of my exploration into the media as I have said many times i am sure and working with the skype in thing that came from the Arnolphini exhibition a year ago and thinking about how I can use that in the future thinking more actually about how to get students relating to me over the internet getting a back and forth dialogue going I really do need to get into some of the adobe connect things probably because the software will all be there for me except that of course got to have it all on poor machines and have to have to software on the machines I am far more interested in doing the whole process through the web so that students are responding to me writing in set up sessions for particular projects so that they have to send in their project briefs on line from home from wherever so they have to work in groups rather thank bringing in paper copies they have to do typed copies but copies that can go back and forth so they can improve on them over two or three sessions and then have that to back up their practical work I think that that is very definitely the way that I want to go taking sketchbooks more and more on line part of the reason that I am doing what I am doing here talk about their ideas but going back to how and what I was saying about transcribing because on the website last week pages and pages and pages of my transcriptions now and too much really to go through the thought come out quite slowly as I walk up the hill in some ways the process of writing I find very definitely not like writing a blog where you can get a specific thought down where as the walking up the hill bit is very definitely a ramble so it's just a tool for trying to get thoughts out of my brain and occasionally over this term it has worked extraordinarily well have reached about this point in the walk and things have been dawning but over the last week or so I have been really pushing the limits getting up very early in the morning with exam marking and interviews an all the gruesome stuff that goes on I really notice that my brain is not working as well as it used to either it was very funny recording thoughts in the middle of the night and then listening back to them and seeing how very slow my brain was working when I was almost asleep so lots of interesting things have come out of it I am not sure to what extent I want to repeat this experiment I am going to have to think about how I am going to take the journal on next term maybe how I change it how I make it more concise or maybe I shall go back to paper I am thinking again that I have loads to type out so I am going to stop and just think a while
Heading up the hill Thursday just before half term thinking about other things to include in assignment 5 thinking about getting the software list together up to date useful for the animation day anyway and in a sense my bibliography the software list is certainly a tool for the work that I do maybe there are other resources that I could get together as well getting hold of Adobe to get the work packs for the teachers ready for Newcastle thinking about the blogs, blogging going through all the adobe blogs and finding the ones that are most relevant looking at Tom's blog as well doing that as he will be teaching me next term make a start on that assignment on narrative I was thinking about other things to include in terms of research the clappy thing that I did last year in flash get that up on to the web site some how and see if it works over the internet because that is sort of related to what I would be doing in Newcastle. In terms of how I present assignment 5 I am thinking that possibly it is not going to be a slide show it would perhaps be an idea to do something with the pulp motion advanced that I have just started on get that into the website somehow the book one in particular or maybe two or three examples but I am running out of things to show I don't want to show a great deal more of my work I don't know what else I would put up there but a few example of aquafadas could go up but in terms of the actual talk I was thinking of literally doing it as a talk just explaining what I am doing the bids maybe have them there actually printed out and the other resource material and do more of a sort of show and tell but I shall wait to see what others have done today this afternoon and adjust what I do accordingly right I didn't want to do too much talking this morning the one that I did from last week took me 20 minutes or so to type up I can say that my typing has improved hugely my touch typing during this exercise and it has been a very interesting way of working using skype for recording my thoughts definitely has to be in there as part of assignment 5 maybe a sort of you know evaluation of the term would be part of it as well it is certainly how - because doing the journal has all been part of my exploration into the media as I have said many times i am sure and working with the skype in thing that came from the Arnolphini exhibition a year ago and thinking about how I can use that in the future thinking more actually about how to get students relating to me over the internet getting a back and forth dialogue going I really do need to get into some of the adobe connect things probably because the software will all be there for me except that of course got to have it all on poor machines and have to have to software on the machines I am far more interested in doing the whole process through the web so that students are responding to me writing in set up sessions for particular projects so that they have to send in their project briefs on line from home from wherever so they have to work in groups rather thank bringing in paper copies they have to do typed copies but copies that can go back and forth so they can improve on them over two or three sessions and then have that to back up their practical work I think that that is very definitely the way that I want to go taking sketchbooks more and more on line part of the reason that I am doing what I am doing here talk about their ideas but going back to how and what I was saying about transcribing because on the website last week pages and pages and pages of my transcriptions now and too much really to go through the thought come out quite slowly as I walk up the hill in some ways the process of writing I find very definitely not like writing a blog where you can get a specific thought down where as the walking up the hill bit is very definitely a ramble so it's just a tool for trying to get thoughts out of my brain and occasionally over this term it has worked extraordinarily well have reached about this point in the walk and things have been dawning but over the last week or so I have been really pushing the limits getting up very early in the morning with exam marking and interviews an all the gruesome stuff that goes on I really notice that my brain is not working as well as it used to either it was very funny recording thoughts in the middle of the night and then listening back to them and seeing how very slow my brain was working when I was almost asleep so lots of interesting things have come out of it I am not sure to what extent I want to repeat this experiment I am going to have to think about how I am going to take the journal on next term maybe how I change it how I make it more concise or maybe I shall go back to paper I am thinking again that I have loads to type out so I am going to stop and just think a while
emdwt 16/5/08 2
21/05/08 04:59
EMDWT1605082
Thinking about assignment 5 on my way down the hill thinking about the regional training centre bid got to get that together to give to Russell he might be off on Monday so that has to be done very soon and thinking about the pervasive media bid Constance Fleuret the visit to here in the pervasive studio labs and how that fits in with art exchange maybe but the Holburne museum and thinking about the photographs that my students took a fortnight about and thinking that that should be in the - that those should be somewhere as an example of the amazing work that students can do with a camera not - when they are directed and when - that taps back into what I was talking about earlier about energy how a special occasion that they get wound up for like the Holburne visit and then the talk and then they can go out with a camera and they can produce amazing photographs that are maybe not so much theirs they are to do with my energy and how I have presented this but they also have taken the photographs so they are very proud of them and that gives them a boost so it is putting that sort of teaching in on a pretty regular basis but I think if you just teach like that weekly if you become a real class room teacher then a lot of the work that gets done has to rely on your energy and it is not the students who are producing the work and for me the ideal is to get to the point where the students who are working because they 'have' to and it is the students who are producing the energy to work the creative energy so it is a balance there - you have to encourage them you have to put enough energy in so that they can see that what they are doing is good - you have provided the spark - but they have to provide the fire that is my feeling - to put in a series of workshops where we teach skills a series of workshops where we are all doing the same thinking so that they tap into the that put in the special occasions that you really wind up for like the photography project that I am doing at the moment but also give them a lot of space just to get on with their own projects and at lower 5th level if that means they spend a lot of time doing very little then that may have to be the way that it has to go and they produce lots in the second year - one of my big complaints about the AS.
Thinking about assignment 5 on my way down the hill thinking about the regional training centre bid got to get that together to give to Russell he might be off on Monday so that has to be done very soon and thinking about the pervasive media bid Constance Fleuret the visit to here in the pervasive studio labs and how that fits in with art exchange maybe but the Holburne museum and thinking about the photographs that my students took a fortnight about and thinking that that should be in the - that those should be somewhere as an example of the amazing work that students can do with a camera not - when they are directed and when - that taps back into what I was talking about earlier about energy how a special occasion that they get wound up for like the Holburne visit and then the talk and then they can go out with a camera and they can produce amazing photographs that are maybe not so much theirs they are to do with my energy and how I have presented this but they also have taken the photographs so they are very proud of them and that gives them a boost so it is putting that sort of teaching in on a pretty regular basis but I think if you just teach like that weekly if you become a real class room teacher then a lot of the work that gets done has to rely on your energy and it is not the students who are producing the work and for me the ideal is to get to the point where the students who are working because they 'have' to and it is the students who are producing the energy to work the creative energy so it is a balance there - you have to encourage them you have to put enough energy in so that they can see that what they are doing is good - you have provided the spark - but they have to provide the fire that is my feeling - to put in a series of workshops where we teach skills a series of workshops where we are all doing the same thinking so that they tap into the that put in the special occasions that you really wind up for like the photography project that I am doing at the moment but also give them a lot of space just to get on with their own projects and at lower 5th level if that means they spend a lot of time doing very little then that may have to be the way that it has to go and they produce lots in the second year - one of my big complaints about the AS.
middle of night 130508
19/05/08 06:39
EMDWT1305082
assignment 5 ideas which I need to dictate in the middle of the night before I forget it seems to be about using the photographs from the upper fourth Holburne trip talking about crazy talk and stuff perhaps web based would be exciting talk about the bids the becta bid and the talk about all the bids the rtc bid the pervasive media bid talk about drag and drop my explorations with drag and drop and my explorations with website I had all this worked out in the middle of the night can't think any more clearly than that
assignment 5 ideas which I need to dictate in the middle of the night before I forget it seems to be about using the photographs from the upper fourth Holburne trip talking about crazy talk and stuff perhaps web based would be exciting talk about the bids the becta bid and the talk about all the bids the rtc bid the pervasive media bid talk about drag and drop my explorations with drag and drop and my explorations with website I had all this worked out in the middle of the night can't think any more clearly than that
EMDWT 25/4/08
25/04/08 17:39
recording25408
er don't know the date Friday I think might be the 23rd of 24th right one more assessment to do and that is about my continuing practice email from Judith this morning about Mediascape so I think that writing out a proposal for funding for the mediascape will be one bit of it I could add the Becta bid what is happening there with Ami and the other schools with another bit of the bid and what is happening with Apple trying to get regional training status that could be part of what I am trying to do in the new build and then what I am trying to do for the animation that could be another aspect to it Roehampton and the Gateshead CLC and developing animation use in school particularly in relation to looking at animators getting resource material together that is actually what I was thinking this part of the methodology would be about very much getting that together for the two conferences and then on the website front all the flash stuff and the website that is now up and running for Sidcot another website so I think that that is all that assignment sorted I have just got to write it now and the sooner the better so maybe that is my task for the weekend but bloody computers garage band won't start up disk won't verify disks keep dying brand new bloody computer two white laptops out because their batteries don't work any more after a year and a half money money money tipped down the drain and then facebook I have lots of past students on my facebook account and last weekend one of these students he wasn't particularly pleasant when he was at school but he sent round a bit of video clip from a security camera of a motorcyclist going under the tires of a truck and getting spread across the road and it really made me feel quite ill all week and thinking a lot about that because it was sort of sent around as a laugh I suppose or that laugh horror gore sort of thing and wondering where that fits in with my freedom not to look at that sort of stuff same with pornography viagra junk email where does my freedom not to look at that stuff what are my rights what are other peoples rights how does that fit in with Tibet I gave a long tirade to my form group yesterday about penis enlargement and people going under tires and the Olympic torch should we have a system like China where google is blocked or do we need it to be totally free mind you google is better than it used to be there was a time when i wouldn't dare let a 10 year old type pussy into google when she was looking for pictures of cats and kittens enough of this rubbish end call.
er don't know the date Friday I think might be the 23rd of 24th right one more assessment to do and that is about my continuing practice email from Judith this morning about Mediascape so I think that writing out a proposal for funding for the mediascape will be one bit of it I could add the Becta bid what is happening there with Ami and the other schools with another bit of the bid and what is happening with Apple trying to get regional training status that could be part of what I am trying to do in the new build and then what I am trying to do for the animation that could be another aspect to it Roehampton and the Gateshead CLC and developing animation use in school particularly in relation to looking at animators getting resource material together that is actually what I was thinking this part of the methodology would be about very much getting that together for the two conferences and then on the website front all the flash stuff and the website that is now up and running for Sidcot another website so I think that that is all that assignment sorted I have just got to write it now and the sooner the better so maybe that is my task for the weekend but bloody computers garage band won't start up disk won't verify disks keep dying brand new bloody computer two white laptops out because their batteries don't work any more after a year and a half money money money tipped down the drain and then facebook I have lots of past students on my facebook account and last weekend one of these students he wasn't particularly pleasant when he was at school but he sent round a bit of video clip from a security camera of a motorcyclist going under the tires of a truck and getting spread across the road and it really made me feel quite ill all week and thinking a lot about that because it was sort of sent around as a laugh I suppose or that laugh horror gore sort of thing and wondering where that fits in with my freedom not to look at that sort of stuff same with pornography viagra junk email where does my freedom not to look at that stuff what are my rights what are other peoples rights how does that fit in with Tibet I gave a long tirade to my form group yesterday about penis enlargement and people going under tires and the Olympic torch should we have a system like China where google is blocked or do we need it to be totally free mind you google is better than it used to be there was a time when i wouldn't dare let a 10 year old type pussy into google when she was looking for pictures of cats and kittens enough of this rubbish end call.